I know I’m not alone in this. Really working to improve, practicing every day, not feeling like I’m getting where I’m going. I know. I asked for this but I don’t always get along with it.
Things have been going pretty well but I got into the comparison trap this evening. Why don’t I sound like _______? I probably won’t ever be as good as _______. And the self-pity feels pitiful and yet, it persists.
There is something in my brain that really doesn’t want to feel like this. And really wants me to stop. But I won’t. Not any time soon. I have to “catch up and close that gap.”
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